Wednesday, March 14, 2007

This is truly called a rant. If you don’t want to read my thoughts, please skip this post. Many others are happy and more cheerful.


Why is it that we as humans get so wrapped up in this world? I mean, even as Christians, it’s so hard to let go of anything special here on earth. Special people become too special, that nice house that you just moved into becomes your addiction, and both usually have to go away because God is jealous.

My sister has described me as obsessive-compulsive, and she’s probably right. No, I’m not taking drugs (although I probably need to…that’s another story for another day), but I do obsess a lot. The everyday interactions with people are bad enough, but what do you do when something in particular catches your attention and you can’t stop thinking about it? What then?

These are the times that try men’s souls…or a woman’s soul…I’m a Christian teenager, so I’m supposed to have all the answers, right? Hah! Far from it. I wander the halls these days, moping, getting frustrated with myself because I know I shouldn’t be moping, shouldn’t be unhappy. But I am.

I don’t have all the answers, and I’m still working on this one, but I believe that this unhappiness and misery is just another way of God calling us. He shows us how miserable this world is and calls us to Himself. Darn it, I wish I would learn another way than through pain, though!

Zephaniah 3:17 comes to mind:

The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.

Psalm 37, perhaps one of my favorite Psalms, also calls:

Psalm 37:3-7a

Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.

Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this:

He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.

Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him;

Then, of course, particularly poignant right now is

Philippians 4:11

Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content

I Timothy 6:8

And having food and clothing, with these we shall be content.


Josh said...

Thats neat cause that has been what God has been laying on my heart. Being content with God.
It is easy for me to put stuff before God, my shotgun, car, job, motorcycle.

Allegra said...

Wow, I'm glad to hear it can apply. Sometimes it seems like my rants go in one ear and out the other...which might not be bad, but your comment is encouraging. Thanks!

Yes, it really is easy to put stuff before God. Too easy. That's why He has to either take it away or make it not quite so special. (Drat!) Don't ask me how I know. I'm sure you have NO clue how that works, either.

So what kind of shotgun, car, motorcycle and job do you have? They all sound cool!

Crystal Soldier said...

Your sister described you as obsessive/compulsive? Wow.

WebN8 said...

That seems to be a common problem among humans.... I think it has more to do with human nature than obsesive compulsivenes.


Allegra said...

Oh. Okay. Well, at least I'm not alone in my misery. That makes me feel evilly better. :P