Silence. An agonizing stillness. tortured nerves. It always amazes me how God turns these times of misery into something so wonderful, something that words don't fully express beyond "a peace that passes all understanding". Today, after lots of things happening this week, I was able to settle down, but it wasn't rest-inducing. If anything, it created mass mayhem in my mind because I was finally able to hear my thoughts...
My thoughts tend to jump around a lot, except when I'm obsessing, which I was doing. I was thinking too much about one certain person, and it was making me totally miserable. I began to be jealous, frustrated with myself, etc. Finally, while the rest of my family was watching Chicken Little (an okay movie, by the way, although I prefer Cars & Madagascar), God basically tapped me on the shoulder & suggested that I read His Word. Wow! What a concept!
After reading His Word, admitting I'd rather be obsessing, and praying about it, He truly gave me joy, peace & strength. It's incredible what time with God will do. So often I feel like I'm communicating with a brick wall, yet He keeps answering prayer. Guess I need to pray more! But really: isn't God great, folks?