Tuesday, October 16, 2007

An update is in order, I suppose. Where should I begin?

Okay, let us start with my job. I am done. Last Saturday was my last day. I can not tell you how GOOD it feels to get that off my plate! Though I love the people there, I cannot stand their language, the 10-hour shifts, or the inability to do anything at home.

Math is going okay. We got a new teacher last Monday, and I have had a hard time understanding what she is trying to tell us. So I am doing my homework much more diligently. The only way I was able to understand one of the really difficult problems yesterday when we were working on them was by explaining it to two different classmates.

English is also okay. We have a classmate who I am trying to be kind to, but I am rather tired of him. He is obnoxious and arrogant enough to think that he can “punish” me by not talking to me for a whole week! Okay, so he’s a decent kid, but he has his times when I’d be more than happy to string him up by his toenails.

We are all learning Spanish using Rosetta Stone’s curriculum. I have to admit I’m not exactly an expert at the language yet, but we’ve got a ways to go yet. It’s actually fun, and I really am learning stuff. Ben and Mom are working together, and I think Ben is getting ahead of Mom… :-P

For science this year, I’m taking Biology and Chemistry simultaneously. That’s because I’ve already spent two years on Biology and still need to finish it. Guess that’s what I get for procrastinating and wanting to be a nurse. Not a good combination…

Lately I’ve been experiencing panic attacks and depression. They both consist of my being sure that I have about twenty deadlines (or so it seems…I only have about seven courses, so it can’t be that much) and absolutely no time to do anything. I’m sure I could target the reason, but it’s still really annoying. Why can’t I just go about my life and not have to deal with new problems?

So life is piling up on me. I’m not sure when I shall ever see a light at the end of the tunnel (assuming there is one and that life doesn’t just get harder and harder), but I’m hoping I don’t break before the end of the year. It’s a good reminder that I need to trust God. I…need…to…TRUST…GOD!!! His will is good. He is loving. Yeah…that sort of basic stuff.

Life is difficult. It probably won’t get easier. But that’s life. And other people have survived, so it’s possible for me. …If that’s any reassurance, which it really isn’t. But yeah, I’m alive and God is still in control. So there’s my update.

3 comments:

Sarah B said...

Thanks for the update!

Life is livable. There is a point at which it simply can't get harder. (I think I hit that point last week.) Wow, that was encouraging...

Keep God as your center, and you can do all things through Him.

Love ya!

Sarah

Matthew said...

Thanks for the update. Yeah, jobs are annoying, aren't they?

Sarah B said...

Another update is in order. *nods*

:)